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"FUCK laying in the bed you made sometimes you have to SLEEP in it,
when the choices you make daily only tend to weaken it,
plus its soak n wet because all you tend do is weep in it,"-Ricardo

GROWTH

the BOY i was in the past is NO ONE compared to the MAN i am today,
in every aspect,
I've grown into a loving caring and at times daring individual in the process of declaring, my divinity as i cant help staring at my future because it wont stop glaring....ITS JUST SO BRIGHT that it has me preparing, for the ceremony of
the tearing, down of my hearts walls when i begin sharing....MY MIND WITH THE WORLD, as my thoughts i begin airing
despite wearing, my heart on my sleeve as i bob and weave..the HATE! and its ability to deceive,robs me of my
ability to believe,which intern changes how i perceive what i can truly achieve, what will i receive if greatness i conceive?, perhaps a by product that is so naive that even when enslaved it refuses to leave!,
it cant be it cant be it cant be!
and if it is then i MUST REACH A HIGHER ELEVATION,high enough to find an unknown constellation,high enough to start
my own civilization with a universal language which eliminates the need for translation,
where children no longer face forced vaccinations,
where the world is sustained off its own cultivation,
where there is no such thing as the word immigration,
which eliminates half of the worlds confrontations,
a place with NO MONEY so corporations,
which eliminates mortgages and bank consolidation,
a place where the native man is not only found on reservations,
which eliminates AmeriKKKa and the land she calls her nation!!!!

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the way that lady justice WEIGHS the TRUTH on a scale reminds me of the rider whose stallion is pale.....BEHOLD,
the trial an the tale of an extraordinary male who refused to drink out the "holy grail",
then escaped from purgatory aka the souls jail, using my own heart as bail,
now watch i blaze a trail to prevail before my LOVE has a chance to turn stale,so my GREATNESS i have the strength to unveil,
enough positive energy to show up on the Richter scale when i exhale,
enough force to derail a freight train the length of 40 whales,
all with a MIND that was once so frail,that it only felt at ease when i would inhale,
who knows maybe I'm already in HELL!!!!

LIFE is a BEAUTIFUL STRUGGLE (inspired by brotha ED)

on the days that life becomes adverse i take solace and I'm grateful because others have it worse,
being ALIVE is like a GIFT and a CURSE,
so daily i rehearse until the moment i converse with a LOVE that intends to reimburse.....
ME with happiness!
NEVERTHELESS i profess,from this day forth to NO LONGER CHASE SUCCESS,
and while I'm at it i guess that ill confess that some days I'm overwhelmed by LIFE and all its stress,
because I'm playing checkers and the world is playing chess,

which intern by default limits how i progress, due in part because i tend to suppress,
the manor i alleviate the pain under my chest!

ENEMY = Inner ME

perhaps my inner me is my enemy,
it makes makes sense now i see ,
why i never allow myself to envision me,
truly living happily,despite all the beauty i happen see,living naturally,
i cant get past the fact I HAVE TO LOVE ME..FIRST,
i blame ME, for taking this long to recognize my SELF WORTH,
learning my lesson because when you blame yourself it makes your soul hurt,
that pain can last for months or even years,draw your blood,sweat and some days even tears,
while magnifying all your fears,reminding you of every person you left in your rear--view,
they question if i care i yell back i still do,
but i couldn't remain standing still by you,
and the environment i outgrew,
mentally leave had to,in order to pursue,
what no man before could do!!!..

Drowning

I'm drowning in the middle of the sea,and i cant leave,to top it off i cant breath,sidetracked by what i want too but cant be,in need of someone to blame because it cant be, me standing in my way,because if it was i would have made it yesterday,
I've learned faith if for the weak so i no longer pray for a better day,I'm doing what i have to do to bring that day my way,without steps in the sands walking besides me,that is lieamens terms for i do not believe,in heavenly divinity,although the afterlife is still a mystery to me,my only concern is being all that i can be, TODAY!,
careless about heaven and hell,those destinations are a spell, place upon the human mind,whose sole purpose and only design,is to control mans morality throughout the course of history and time,
if god really exist why wont IT give the world a sign!

Random Quote

"my heart makes the decisions and i follow its commands,
at times my heart and my thoughts clash forcing my mind to take a stand,
in order to gain the upper hand,
while being sidetracked from building its promise land!"

Random Thought..(pt2)

i dream of different places where my heart embraces everything my mind erases and the love replaces the sorrow that is consuming the available spaces,
Like a atom and a neutron combining at the speed of light directly in my line of site as i overwrite my complex proverbial incite as i ignite my overall lack of delight,creating a flame so bright that i just might explode like a bomb site,because i dared to invite my plight to stand before me upright..

M y Heart

i love her an i WONT tell her why,
every time i think about her my heart sighs,every time i think about her my heart cries,every time i think about her my heart just......DIES!!
my heart tells me "tell her how you feel",i tell my heart "I've always kept it real",
my heart replies, "then why do you still conceal a love that we both know is ideal"
i reply, "heart this not a game deal or no deal,these are my emotions YOU want ME to reveal"
my heart laughed and said,"its not YOU and ME its US,if not me then who can you trust?, there isn't a thing in this world that we cant discuss and ill NEVER look back at you with disgust!"

Random Thought..

i had my chance to be a GOD and i didn't pursue it,
so then i cried to the DEVIL and he told me i blew it,
my chance to be immortal left and just might never return,
when you discern that soul evaporates after a slow burn,
i use to wonder when will it be my turn,to be an intern for concern,
when the time comes to earn for what it is i yearn,
in retrospect i LEARN,everyday i am alive,

so watch as daily i strive to survive while the masses thrive
off the lies,
i thrive off a attitude that never says die,although i always find a way to ask why!!..

Media

im walking while unaware where to go, like water trying to flow, without gravity,you know?
and if you dont know, then i cant blame you,because we are all members of a society whos objective is to tame you,subdue then train you,
turn you to sheep then leap the lambs to the slaughter house, while keeping you distracted so you remain as quite as a church mouse, or making you submit and accept it like an obedient spouse,
dammit it hurts, OUCH!!!, just sitting back on my couch,
watching censored news,being delivered by these senseless tools,lying to us as if we are all fools,trying their hardest to objectify our world views,all in the name of ratings,news networks conspire on sedating,an amerikkan public who is pre consumed with reality dating, and internet masturbating,
tv tells lies to your vision it says it in its name,so how can a society complain,when an object that goes by that name,spews nothing but venom to your brain,force feeding images that remain ingrained in your brain, that couldn't be washed away by hurricane force rains,images that attack the subconscious of our brains, faster than the blood that is flowing through my veins, better yet faster than i could pronounce my first name,faster then a humming bird can flap its wings, now that's fast!,
but still forever those images last, they linger around like and unforgiving past,very hard to find like a drug dealers stash,because its well concealed like a thief wearing a mask, so locating and destroying its mental shackles is my current and only task!!!....

Questions:

i hate the sound of goodbyes but relish in the joy that it implies, when you meet your demise is when its your chance to rise...WILL YOU TAKE IT?,
when the time comes for you to be great...WILL YOU FAKE IT?,
these are questions i ask MYSELF,
like can LOVE provide over WEALTH?, or
does a person only need HAPPINESS and GOOD HEALTH?