"IN NEED OF"

who i am is like the dark side of the moon....RARELY SEEN!,
in need of a new sun...MINE REFUSES TO GLEAM!,
in need of a new heart...MINE IS TEARING AT THE SEAMS!,
in need of new eyes...MINE ARE DROWNING IN THE STREAMS!,
in need of new ears...MINE CAN ONLY HEAR ARE THE SCREAMS!,
in need of more sleep...SO I CAN KEEP CHASING MY DREAMS!,
in need of more LOVE...I'M NOT AS LOVING AS I SEEM!,
in need of more FREEDOM...DID YOU VOTE FOR THIS REGIME?,
in need of more TRUTH...I LOVE TO HEAR HER WHEN SHE SINGS!,
in need of flying away...WILL YOU HELP ME FIND WINGS?,
in need of a new beginning...AND THE CLARITY IT BRINGS!,
in need of warmth...ITS LIKE I'M FREEZING IN THE MIDDLE OF THE SPRING!,
in need of a THRONE...THE PROJECTS ISN'T CASTLE THIS KING!,
in need of more knowledge...I KNOW A LOT BUT NOT EVERYTHING!,
in need of being my own master...START CUTTING THE PUPPET STRINGS!,
in need of a paradise...ON THE DAYS THAT REALITY BITES AND WHATS PRESENTED SINCERELY DOESN'T SUFFICE!,
SOME DAYS i feel like i need a new life,while on OTHER DAYS my appetite craves the bitter strife,because EVERYDAY the struggle is a part of my life!!!!

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"FUCK laying in the bed you made sometimes you have to SLEEP in it,
when the choices you make daily only tend to weaken it,
plus its soak n wet because all you tend do is weep in it,"-Ricardo

GROWTH

the BOY i was in the past is NO ONE compared to the MAN i am today,
in every aspect,
I've grown into a loving caring and at times daring individual in the process of declaring, my divinity as i cant help staring at my future because it wont stop glaring....ITS JUST SO BRIGHT that it has me preparing, for the ceremony of
the tearing, down of my hearts walls when i begin sharing....MY MIND WITH THE WORLD, as my thoughts i begin airing
despite wearing, my heart on my sleeve as i bob and weave..the HATE! and its ability to deceive,robs me of my
ability to believe,which intern changes how i perceive what i can truly achieve, what will i receive if greatness i conceive?, perhaps a by product that is so naive that even when enslaved it refuses to leave!,
it cant be it cant be it cant be!
and if it is then i MUST REACH A HIGHER ELEVATION,high enough to find an unknown constellation,high enough to start
my own civilization with a universal language which eliminates the need for translation,
where children no longer face forced vaccinations,
where the world is sustained off its own cultivation,
where there is no such thing as the word immigration,
which eliminates half of the worlds confrontations,
a place with NO MONEY so corporations,
which eliminates mortgages and bank consolidation,
a place where the native man is not only found on reservations,
which eliminates AmeriKKKa and the land she calls her nation!!!!

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the way that lady justice WEIGHS the TRUTH on a scale reminds me of the rider whose stallion is pale.....BEHOLD,
the trial an the tale of an extraordinary male who refused to drink out the "holy grail",
then escaped from purgatory aka the souls jail, using my own heart as bail,
now watch i blaze a trail to prevail before my LOVE has a chance to turn stale,so my GREATNESS i have the strength to unveil,
enough positive energy to show up on the Richter scale when i exhale,
enough force to derail a freight train the length of 40 whales,
all with a MIND that was once so frail,that it only felt at ease when i would inhale,
who knows maybe I'm already in HELL!!!!

LIFE is a BEAUTIFUL STRUGGLE (inspired by brotha ED)

on the days that life becomes adverse i take solace and I'm grateful because others have it worse,
being ALIVE is like a GIFT and a CURSE,
so daily i rehearse until the moment i converse with a LOVE that intends to reimburse.....
ME with happiness!
NEVERTHELESS i profess,from this day forth to NO LONGER CHASE SUCCESS,
and while I'm at it i guess that ill confess that some days I'm overwhelmed by LIFE and all its stress,
because I'm playing checkers and the world is playing chess,

which intern by default limits how i progress, due in part because i tend to suppress,
the manor i alleviate the pain under my chest!

ENEMY = Inner ME

perhaps my inner me is my enemy,
it makes makes sense now i see ,
why i never allow myself to envision me,
truly living happily,despite all the beauty i happen see,living naturally,
i cant get past the fact I HAVE TO LOVE ME..FIRST,
i blame ME, for taking this long to recognize my SELF WORTH,
learning my lesson because when you blame yourself it makes your soul hurt,
that pain can last for months or even years,draw your blood,sweat and some days even tears,
while magnifying all your fears,reminding you of every person you left in your rear--view,
they question if i care i yell back i still do,
but i couldn't remain standing still by you,
and the environment i outgrew,
mentally leave had to,in order to pursue,
what no man before could do!!!..

Drowning

I'm drowning in the middle of the sea,and i cant leave,to top it off i cant breath,sidetracked by what i want too but cant be,in need of someone to blame because it cant be, me standing in my way,because if it was i would have made it yesterday,
I've learned faith if for the weak so i no longer pray for a better day,I'm doing what i have to do to bring that day my way,without steps in the sands walking besides me,that is lieamens terms for i do not believe,in heavenly divinity,although the afterlife is still a mystery to me,my only concern is being all that i can be, TODAY!,
careless about heaven and hell,those destinations are a spell, place upon the human mind,whose sole purpose and only design,is to control mans morality throughout the course of history and time,
if god really exist why wont IT give the world a sign!