When Your Around

When your around I can't control how my heart beats,
I can't control how my blood flows,
I can't control what my body loves to feel and my heart thinks it knows,
I can't control the smile your presence makes me shed or the tingles on the back of my neck as your lips graze my skin,
I can't control the thoughts that run marathons in my head as i think of you,
I can't control the dreams I have of you as I chase you in my sleep,
I can't control how the warmth of your body satisfies me,
I can't control the pleasure I'm inspired to cater you with or the joy I'd like to shower you with for infinite days and nights,
I can't control so much in this world but one thing I can control is how I treat you,
Metaphorically I'd love to give you the sun moon and stars...translation-I want to give you the originator of all in existence,
The elements that combine to show you how I feel have yet to be discovered!!
The brightest minds and highest iq's have yet to quantify how you make me feel,
For you are the current master of all that I can't control,
The current owner of the factory that produces my emotions,
The current employee in my hearts store selling my affection back to me,
You are more then you could imagine and too much for me to explain,
You are beauty at its finest,
You are love at it's loveliest,
You are perfection in my eyes both when open tight and wide shut,
You are....you!! And that's what I appreciate the most,
For all the things I can't control...fuck it let's have a toast!!

Day One

"Imagine that is day one, and your forced to choose between freeDOME & freeDUMB, either way the outcome is a free society that will only free some, kill more then feed less while in route to confess, it's unbearable sins to a lowly sinner dinning over a home cooked poisoned dinner!!"

Tears Of A Broken Man

I'm crying the tears of a broken man-who is-reliving the same year of his life span,
I've burned bridges I could never rebuild, leaving voids in my heart that could never be filled,
It's gotta be karma or something like it,
Whatever it is I can't fight it,
If it was all written then I've come to rewrite it,
But it's hard cus it's been a while since I've been excited,
And even longer since I've truly felt bliss,
Somedays I even hide from the suns warm kiss,
On those days I'm secluded until the night falls,
Sometimes I break night ignoring every time my dreams call,
Certain days I question...why dream in the first place,
On those days dreams feel like a never ending race where regardless of your pace, your destination strays far ahead of you,
In the process leaving you exhausted and miserable,...this is where your dreams can get the best of you,
Leaving you feeling dissatisfied and no longer content with the fact that you tried,
Some people can't cope and choose suicide,....ME MYSELF I try harder until the day my dreams collide...with my present day!!

Message to HER

Her face is tattooed on the back of my eyelids,
No one to blame that was something I did,
All on my own--so I could see her when I'm all alone,
Last night I even dreamed I was on a throne and she was next to me like empress of Rome!!

Where I Call Home

Where living is like a prison and freedom is when you die,
Where every breath is costly so you can't afford to sigh
Where tears freeze into icicles when you begin to cry,
Where the top of the planet meets the bottom of the sky,...is where I call home,
Because where I call home has been entrenched by a poverty and itched in stone,
Then that very every same stone was picked up and thrown at the stained glass walls of where I call home,
My home shattered and I was left prone to feeling all alone,
My heart needs a loan so I could build a replica and clone my old home,
My old home has shown me how much I've grown,
When lost it's human nature to return to what you've known,
BUT I've out grown it in so many ways,
To the point where I'm no longer afraid of my next phase,
So I'm breaking ground on a new home,
Feel free to visit BUT only when you've grown!!!

Raindrops

Raindrops fall and cleanse my soul,
Raindrops wash away my past,
Raindrops soak away the sorrow,
Raindrops drown the misfortune,
Raindrops fill my cup with optimism,
So I look up to the sky as the raindrops fall on me

Leaf

I feel as naive as the leaf that bares a belief--of never falling,
Gravity is against me the breeze so appalling--under the moonlight I hear the foliage calling,
I wake up a different color everyday--I was once so vivid now I'm slowly turning gray,
BUT I'LL BE REBORN ONE DAY!!,
It's the cycle of 4 seasons--that nurture the roots of my reasons,
FOR BEING!!